Introduction

Hi!

A couple quick things:

1. Posts on this blog will be very informal. Most of them will be written in what one might call "typing out loud", which is essentially more about getting all the thoughts out there, and might not be literally 'awesome' as in not in amazing structure or English, but, as mentioned earlier, lays emphasis on the thought / idea itself. (That last sentence is kind of ironic, huh? 😝🙃)

2. About the blog's content

This blog is about my journey in getting rid of my PMO addiction (PMO = Pornography, Mastrubation, Orgasm); And it's very important for me to caution you about, and for you to know that, that this blog will contain a bit more than just that; I will be talking of my life on a very personal level (factors and other things).

3. Why?

This may seem out of context, but I want to apply to universities in the US, and having signed up with a counselling service and being advised by mother and stuff like that, one usually ends up looking at everything they do as "how does this add to my app". And in my opinion, due to this psyche, one often...well,  rather I often, am left confused about whether I am doing something because I like it, for apps, or does it just happen to be both. And hence this often leads to over complication (at least in my case), and further leads to 'Analysis Paralysis'. 

So, to be clear. I am not sure whether this will be sited in my CV. Rather, I am pretty sure it won't be, as from what I've been told by my mother is that colleges don't want to hear about anything even near something like this. So, in all probability, I won't be siting this in my CV, but, I might mention this in an interview if someone asks me, or if I deem appropriate (the latter might make sense in the following paras (it helping people and stuff)). 

I wrote this out, so that you know the intention clearly and aren't left feeling cheated in any way. 

But, the primary purpose or motivation behind me writing something like this, or even having the thought of it, is that I very often imagine myself, speaking to / in front of, a bunch of people and telling them the story of how I recovered ... immediately after I jerk off. Side note, as of this moment (when I am or was writing that is), I would categorise myself as a PMO addict. 

I probably won't post this during the process of my recovery, though I am not sure, as I might decide to apply the '100 Days of Code' concept, where in it's the social declaration of me doing something which keeps me going, but then the factor of one's 'social image' comes into play.

(Note: It seems like this intro itself is typed-out-loud. lel 🤣)

Point is, I want to recover and help other fellows through my story. And from what I know, if I kept waiting around for me to recover at the rate that I was, it would have taken ages. Hence this blog, not for college, not anybody, but me ... a way of documenting my story with this problem, for me to notice it with time ... each post refreshes the realisation of the problem and hence, through regular posts recover, improve, and move on. And .... hopefully, one day, once I have passed out of school (so my image in school even if affected wouldn't harm me, hopefully) or, if I muster up enough courage to put this out before I pass out of school, then, it can help someone else; help people learn from my story; not make the mistakes I did. 

And don't when I write this, I'm writing it for myself, so, there's no pressure on me as such. Like...let's be honest, this introduction hasn't been an easy read has it, 😝. Though, I will try and write in a manner that is centred towards me, but can help someone else as well

4. About me (i forgot to mention this 😝)

At the time of writing this, I am a 15 year old from somewhere in India! I've not decided and am not sure about revealing my name. 

Peace!

Just Another Deep Guy